Being 30 years old is not really as bad as I thought it would be.

Oh well, nothing has changed to start with. I am still as lazy as a pig, procrastinate, self-centered and talk more than listen. Except when filling out survey/form now I have to check the box 30-35 instead of 24-29, virtually everything else stays the same. I was thinking if I should stop wearing jeans to work; but since I am working in Uni who am I kidding? I do feel the age pressure when I notice my students are 18 years old every year while I am the only one growing older, but I guess the frequent checking of ID when I purchase liquors or entering the casino do balance things out especially when I see the “wow” look from those people browsing my DOB from my driving license. Also get a bit of relief every time after I play the brain test game in NDS, telling me that my brain age is still around 25 years old and it spins pretty fast. I like to believe that is true.

According to an old say in Chinese, people should be “standing” or “establishing” in the society when they are 30. Looking back for the last 10 years with all the little successes and big failures, not sure if I have done anything that supports me to “stand”. One thing I do feel differently today is that people can be anything they want to be when they are young; but when they pass certain point then everything they do define who they are and is kinda difficult to change anymore after that. I believe I am at that stage now, 30 or not, I have reached there. Hopefully this belief would start to make some positive changes to my actions, and so I can have some good stories to review when I am 40 years old.

In the meantime, I would just forget about the whole thing and live as 29 years and 13 months old.

P.S. Happy Birthday to my love, who is still 20 something and has nothing to worry about